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[1] And maybe i know
your eye color
your screename numbers
your address
your favorite color
your favorite food
your middle name
everything about you
that doesn't change the fact
that i look at you
and i can tell
your looking right through me
thinking about
someone else [2] screaming and saying "fuck" a lot doesn't really get your point across. sometimes silence is the most violent option to choose [3] you don't care at all, and i'm done
holding on to something that is long gone [4] It’s funny how when you finally get over someone,
you start seeing them in a whole new perspective.
It’s like you're looking at them
through the eyes of your best friend,
and you realize, he's nothing special.
He’s just another ordinary boy [5] All I want is happiness, I'm tired of being let down  
 
[6] I need to come to realize that he's just a guy, a special one, maybe, but he's not mine. I don't need to do things to make him love me. if he wanted to, he would [7] and i'm lonely again tonight,
i can feel it like a knot in my side.
they keep saying this is part of the ride,
but i'm not getting stronger [8] Don't ignore me; don't act like we're strangers. I know you love her now & you know I hate her, but don't pretend the love we had wasn't real. That hurts; that wasn't part of the deal. We're not together anymore, but we are in my heart. When you look at me like everyone else, it completely tears me apart [9] This is for you, my best friend, the one person I can tell my soul to.
Who can relate to me like no other, who I can laugh with to no extent,
who I can cry to when times are tough, who can help me with the problems of my life.
Never have you turned your back on me or told me I wasn't good enough or let me down;
I don't think you know what that means to me.
You have gone through so much pain & you still have time for me & I love you for listening even when inside you're dying.
And I look up to you because you're strong, and caring & beautiful, even though you don't think you are.
And I hope you know that I'm always here to listen to you laugh & cry and help in all the ways that I can,
& I will try to be at least half the friend you are to me. I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, without you,
my best friend. Thanks for being the friend who's always believed in me,
who's always understood, who's always accepted me, who's always cared [10] I don't want your boyfriend.
Nobody wants your boyfriend.
That's why he's with you  
 
[11] Its like we want to be together but we just met and we’re both scared to death. Its like we’re on the verge of…togetherness [12] I can't wait until the hot summer air is back, and I just can just run through the city that is too small for me. Lay in the middle of the dead road, and gaze up at the stars. Not returning home until the early morning hours. I can't wait until we can let our spirits free and enjoy our childhood... One last time. [13] Forget summer love;
i want a winter romance [14] i know he's not perfect,
but he tries so hard for me.
and i thank God that he isn't,
cause how boring would that be?
it's the little imperfections,
its the sudden change in plans
when he misreads the directions,
and we're lost but holding hands.
yea i live for little moments
when he steals my heart again
and doesn't even know it.
yea i live for little moments like that
[15] i'll never let you stand alone.
you'll always have my hand to hold.
our lengthy talks will never get old.
your gonna change the world you know?
well its the small things you do,
that keep me from falling through this hole.
yeah its the quiet things you say,
that make me wanna keep everything this way,
and i know that when the time come
you wont let me break
 
 
[16] because i'm afraid
of loving you. [`7] I find that in your arms, I feel safe.
I find that in your mind, I feel wanted.
I find that in your eyes, I feel me.
I find that in your heart, I feel love.
[18] He makes her laugh.
Her laugh makes him smile.
His smile makes her world go round.
She's his world. [19] the look in your eyes,
makes me want to break
and the half smile
played across your lips
seems a thousand miles away
all I want to do is love you
and sometimes,
you're so distant from me [20] It's all a little strange to me
how one person can hold your hand
but another can hold your heart
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[1] i wanna be the girl that you see,
and stop dead in the middle of a
conversation just to look at. [2] You're letting her think that
you’re emotionally available.
You’re letting her think she has a chance.
and theres nothing worse in the world
than thinking you have a chance when really you don’t [3] "Even if it kills me , i'm gonna smile." [4] if you can't find something to live for, you better find something to die for. [5] Someday, you're going to wake up and
realiaze that you need me. but by then
i'll be waking up next to the guy who
realized that long before you  
 
[6] there's always that liitle bit of whore, in
every girl when it comes to that one special guy [7] I still believe, In spite of everything, That people are truly good at heart.
- Anne Frank [8] Even though we weren't in love, I miss that boy more than anyone Will ever understand. [9] Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn how to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is give in to sadness first. Because without sadness, there's no happiness; you would never learn to smile. [10] Sometimes you need another
person to make you feel better
and right now you're my person  
 
[11] I hate people that say that their the type of person
who will BURST out laughing because of something that happened yesterday.
PLEASEEE. i will still be laughing at stuff MONTHS later. [12] I realized then why we respond to the sound of the waves, and the falling of rain, and wind in the trees. Because they are meaningless.They are nothing to do with us.They are outside our control. They remind us of a time, very early in our lives, when we did not understand the noises around us, but simply accepted them in our ears; and so they provided blessed relief from our continual need attempts to change a world in magic deed, or endless thought. Meaningless sound, which me love against the anxiety of action, of pattern-making. of seeking to comprehend and change. As soon as we picked up something and used it for a purpose, we were both made and damned. Tool-making gave us the world, and we lost our minds. [13] He smiled understandingly—much more than understandingly. It was one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it, that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced--or seemed to face--the whole external world for an instant, and then concentrated on you with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just as far as you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like to believe in yourself, and assured you that it had precisely the impression of you that, at your best, you hoped to convey. [14] I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower, makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show him. And its been a long december, and theres reason to believe, maybe this year will be better than the last. [15] Let's run away to a place where the air tastes like rain and the sun shines like Sunday morning. You bring your laugh and I'll bring my sense of humor, and we can taste the days, one week after another.  
 
[16] i love how we laugh at the same things
we both have dorky smiles and get caught staring at each other;
and then look away fast and pretend nothing happened.
like you haven't been on my mind all these weeks. [17] I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. I want to know if you will risk looking a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
[18] maybe he's starting to see the real girl. the one behind an ambitious, quiet, and self-conscious girl. the one who loves her friends more than life itself and laughs about pretty much everything, cause she can. and that's what she thinks life is about--having the time of your life. [19] growing up is never straightforward.
there are moments when everything is fine,
& other moments, when youre a teenager
& you realize that there are certain memories
that youll never get back.
& certain people that are going to change
& the hardest part is realizing that
theres nothing you can do except watch them,
& realize that everything is going to change.
[20] I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just jerks. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and it only takes suspicion, not proof to destroy it. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others, they are more screwed up than you think. I've learned that the people you care about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.  
 
[21] Darling, I would hate to ruin
this because we both know that
it's almost flawless. But those
beautiful nights don't last forever
& a beautiful world will never exist. [22] I do what all women do. I think.
I blame myself. I marinate in my failure.
I hate myself sometimes. Sometimes
I cry. More often I stare at the ceiling
and wonder what is wrong with me. [23] I believe that everything happens
for a reason. People change so that
you can learn to let go, things go
wrong so that you appreciate them
when they're right. You believe lies
so you eventually learn to trust no
one but yourself. And sometimes
good things fall apart so better
things can fall together. [24] Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid, afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. 
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[1] The reason there's so much hate in this world
Is because whenever nice emotion is showed;
It gets thrown back in our faces,
& It makes us a little more conscious
About showing it again.
[2] I can't breathe--
In the "You are so perfect that you take my breath away"
Kinda way. [3] T.e.a.r.d.r.o.p.s fall from those pretty little eyes.
Kind of hard to move on when you only told lies.
She's [[breaking down]], everyone's fading.
It's been so long and she's tired of w a i t i n g.
[4] && Its jealousy that you'd never admit. [5] The world needs more Heroes.  
 
[6] "I am ready to meet my maker. Whether my maker is prepared to meet me is another matter."
-Winston Churchill [7]
I'll never admit just how much I cared
Or that I'll never stop.
[8]
He was her weakness and she was tired of always giving in,
He knew he could get away with how he treated her.
So, last night she held her [[breath]] and let him go
To see what he's r.e.a.l.l.y made of. [9] One thing leads to another set of events,
&& Bad things lead to the good.
H o l d o n.
[10] Maybe I was meant to lose myself when I lost you  
 
[11] Best friends don’t let you do stupid things..
alone. [12] Music.
We do it for the passion
The love.
The rush.
The spirit.
The want.
The need.
The title.
The feeling.
The good times.
The bad times.
We do it because it’s
What we were born to do. [13] I'm scared to get too close to people; whether they're friends or whatever. It seems that every time I get close to someone, they always have to go away. Maybe, it's to teach me how life goes on, and how I shouldn't depend on people. Or maybe, I just trust the wrong people. [14] nobody's perfect,
just perfect for each other. [15] I hope the weather holds,
but you don't need the sun
to make you shine.  
 
[16] He looked at me, with the same look in his eyes as the first day we met.
And I knew, right then,
I could never let him look at anyone else that way again. [17] i get so sick of everyone disappointing me.
i guess its my fault for thinking so highly of people.
cause in the end,
no one seems to live up to my expectations. [18] It happens to everyone as they grow up:
you find out who you are and what you want
and you realize that the people you've known forever
don't see things the way you do.
And so you keep the memories
but find yourself moving on. [19] Distance means absolutely nothing, when someone means so much. [20] My lips are screaming pretty nothings, my ears are bleeding for want of words.
Fuck words, I need actions. Hope has left me fucking shattered. Someone's standing on my chest.
Alone would be a pleasant change from here.
 
 
[21] Never underestimate a girl like me
I'm like no one you've ever met
& I'm stronger than I seem.
You can't break my ego. [22] You made me who I am
And remind me of who I'm not. [23] The world seems to be coming to an e.n.d tonight
The s t a r s are falling and we've all stopped moving.
Can't we get it back? [24] How does it feel to know you're everything i need?
The butterflies in my stomach;
they could bring me to my knees.
How does it feel to know you're everything i want?
[25] speak the language in a voice you have never heard,
i wanna sleep w/u forever and i wanna die in your arms
in a cabin in the meadow where the wild bees swarm,
im gonna love you,like nobody loves you,
and im gonna trust makin memories of us.
 
 
[26] shes clinging onto any boy that dares to speak her name.
shes swapping spit with all those boys to gain some hometown fame.
shes beautiful and naive without an ounce of shame.
shes searching hard for someone to love and show shes losing her own game. [27] Take off your headphones and
stop day-dreaming of a brighter day.
This is reality. Not another one of your dreams.
The life you once wanted, was a lie.
You were lying to yourself. Open your eyes.
Dont waste another breath.
Nothing is ever how we dream it 
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[1] and i'm not handling this well
you never know just what you have
until you get it yanked out of your chest [2] and i'm staring down the barrel of 45,
swimming through the ashes of another life.
no real reason to accept the
way the things have changed. [3] smoke filling my eyes,
i fall back on the bed
surrounded by laughter of newfound friends
i realize, sometimes happiness doesn't
lie with those who know you best
but those who don't know you at all. [4] i've got your ring around my neck,
and a couple nights i don't regret
you've got a dream of a degree,
and a shirt that smells like me. [5] you turned to me and said
"i'll be going through withdrawel of you
for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.  
 
[6] I want something to make
me feel whole. I want something
to make me feel complete.
I want a reason to put on my
make up in the morning.
I want a reason to set 45 minutes
aside to do my hair. I want a reason
to not wear pj's all the time.
I want a reason to actually care.
[7] If you really want something, and
really work hard, and take advantage
of opportunities, and never give up,
you will find a way.
-Jane Goodall [8] We're all looking for something to take away the pain.
We're all addicted to something, that takes away the pain
Me, and you, and my medication. [9] What hurts is that I used to be the one. The one you talked to last before you went to bed. The one that you talked to every day before school. The one who you'd go out of your way to see. The one you'd unconditionally be with, & who you weren't too busy to talk to, no matter what, but now? You never seem to have a second for me, even to talk. You only see me when it's totally necessary for you.. your free time isn't free enough to be with me. You don't talk to me in the mornings. & you rarely talk to me each night before bed. I guess I've just got to start to accept that I am not the one; that she is. And truthfully? I get that. & I'm still alive through it. [10] Although "jumping to conclusions" is an expression, rather than an activity, it is as dangerous as jumping off a cliff, jumping in front of a moving train, and jumping for joy. If you jump off a cliff, you have a very good chance of experiencing a painful landing unless there is something below you to cushion your fall, such as a body of water or an immense pile of tissue paper. If you jump in front of a moving train, you have a very good chance of experiencing a painful voyage unless you are wearing some sort of train-proof suit. And if you jump for joy, you have a very good chance of experiencing a painful bump on the head, unless you make sure you are standing someplace with very high ceilings, which joyous people rarely do. Clearly, the solution to anything involving jumping is either to make sure you are jumping to a safe place, or not to jump at all. -lemony snicket.  
 
[11] && for once she wants to be the person to have a secret admirer.
The person to be thought of 24 hours, 7 days a week.
She wants to be the person that gets all those stupid love notes.
She wants to feel the feeling of having someone sprung over her.
&& for once, just once, she wants to be told that she's loved by someone
wo actually means it.. without having to tell them she loves them first. [12] don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs. know that in the end, you'll get what your heart longs. try not to risk it all ; don't stumble ; don't fall. take the time to read the writings on the wall. hold your head high ; don't be afraid to say goodbye. stay true & be you. do everything there is to do. live life to the fullest & never look back - there is a reason for the future & a reason for the past. love til it hurts ; laugh til you cry. and when your life flashes before you before you die, be happy for what you've done, be happy for what you've overcome, & most of all, be proud of what you had become. [13] Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many
people call you and it's not about who you've dated,
are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who
you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or
girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or
the color of your skin or where you live or go to
school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes,
or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if
you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's
not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.
Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you
love, and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about
yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.
It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing
inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy,
overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's
about what you say and what you mean. It's about
seeing people for who they truly are. [14] I don't need a rose, I want a daisy you picked for my hair. I don't want a box of fancy chocolates, I want a burnt cookie you made just for me. I don't want to go to some upscale restaurant, Let's just have a picnic in the park. We don't have to go to prom, We can just dance on my front porch until we fall asleep in each other's arms.
[15] every thought is about you
you drive me insane  
 
[16] Take it from me
It's a lesson to be learned
Even the good guys get burned [17] missing someone is a part of loving them. [18] if you have a broken heart or a battered soul
find something to hold on to or to let go
to help you through the hard nights like a flask filled with hope
darlin' do not fear what you don't really know
( Darlin' Do Not Fear ; Brett Dennen ) [19] I'm not like everybody else. I don't do what i'm
told. I'm great at arguring, But I hate doing it. I
laugh more than I breathe, but only at stupid
things. I don't get good grades. I hate getting
in trouble, but it happens everyday. I'll tell you
straight out if I don't like you. hell, I got a big mouth.
but I also have a good heart to match it and love
you with all that I have. [20] You make MTV want a show called
PIMP MY FACE!
 
 
[21] heaven's not a place you go when you die,
it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
so live for the moment, take this advice live by every word
[22] Seasons don't fear the reaper,
nor do the wind, the sun or the rain.
[23] I'm always ready to die
But you're killing me
[24] Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me?
[25] We love in vain narcissistic and so shallow  
 
[26] Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight [27] So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell? [28]
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
[29] "But by day three, I began hearing the voice too:
'Come on, you can do it. Don’t give in. You’re better than that.'
When I refused food, I had a sense of victory.
The longer I resisted, the more powerful I felt.
When Meg was admitted to the hospital,
I thought that she had failed and allowed this to happen.
Now I understood the seduction of the words in her head, how
they could override the most basic human survival instincts.
And I saw her as a hero who had to be incredibly strong in her fight to recover."
[30] there is one person in this whole world who i hate.
i hate her more than anything.
she makes me angry, she makes me furious, she makes me irate.
she makes me sad, she makes me upset, she makes me feel depressed.
she confuses me, she annoys me, she worries me.
and she does not ever listen to me.
and for that, i hate her.
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[1] the true friends are the ones holding your hand with their shirt soaked through with your tears while everybody else is just standing around wondering
what happened [2] You get in the biggest fights
with the people you care about the most
Because those are the realationships
You're willing to fight for [3] and he is the only one that can lift my spirits and help me from this nightmare and make me a beautiful mess. [4] A true friend won't question your motives, will hug you just cause they can sense that you need it, will never fall for your famous false smile that fools everyone else, will let you listen to your favorite song over & over in the car even when they don't like the song, will tell you the truth even when you'd rather not hear it, & will never leave your side, in good times or in bad ones, now don't tell me you think you find people that are that special to your life everyday.
[5] It was quiet in the car so I was thinking of you.
So I turn on the radio & hear my favorite song.
But it made me think of you, so I turned off the
radio. I looked out the window, & I saw the pouring
rain. & it made me think of you..I miss you  
 
[6] The moon.
You don't normally think about it
and it doesn't really serve a purpose.
But still, from time to time, you look up at it.
And it makes you feel better. [7] Sure, there are obstacles on the way,
broken hearts and bitter friends, car
problems and bad hair days. But every
day she smiles and moves on, because
nothing in this world will stop her. [8] And everyday I write,
"I will let go of him tomorrow, I promise." [9] For a kiss to be really good,
it has to mean something.
you want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head,
so that when your lips finally touch,
you can feel it everywhere.
a kiss so hot, so deep that you never want to come up for air [10] The best crime you can
commit is stealing a heart  
 
[11] Sometimes you just feel
everything && nothing all at once.
Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling
while missing something at the same time.
At times you can absolutely love a person,
all the while wanting to hate them.
Life comes without guarantees.
Except that smiling will brighten your face,
laughing will enhance your eyes,
&& falling in love will change your life. [12] what's teenage love? it's staying up late for each other and barely staying awake in class the next day. it's passing each other between classes and stopping to say hi, but ending up running to your next class right before the bell rings. it's going to the mall, wandering around hand in hand, with a silence that's comfortable. it's watching a move in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulders, and you resting your head in his arms. it's walking around at night for no reason at all:; his chest, her head, looking at the stars. it's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll have a broken heart. it's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. it's teenage love; here to stay, here to play with our hearts and never go away. ©arriviste [13] She said, "You're selfish. You're unkind. You're a backstabber. You're a bitch. You're a horrible person." I replied, "So I'm just like you?" [14] friends are the people who love you for
who you were.who you are. who you could be
they will be there for you through tears,
hugs, and laugther. they know when they need to be there
and when they dont. they are the people who understand
without ever being told. [15] It's the days we're so crazy
people think we're drunk
the times we're so bored
we laugh until we cry
all the inside jokes and the "remember whens"
these are all the reasons
we'll always be best friends  
 
[16] can you still see the heart of me?
all my agony fades away when you hold me in your embrace
don't tear me down for all i need
make my heart a better place, give me something i can believe
don't tear me down
you've opened the door now, don't let it close. 
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